I just wanted to say a quick thanks to everyone who wished me a happy birthday today! 🎂
I’m officially 25 today! Yikes, I’m halfway to 50! Scary thought, and a good reminder that life is short! That being said, I did have some anxiety today thinking that! It’s like you blink and it’s already 2018 and you’re 25! It’s a crazy feeling that’s for sure.
Today, I was feeling anxious because I’m 25 and feel very behind from where a lot of people my age are at! It seems like everyone my age is in a serious relationship/ engaged/ married with their futures already planned out, and that is just not where I’m at! But, now that I’ve had time to think about it, I realize I’ve been anxious for no reason. There is no age where it says you have to be at a certain place, and you definitely cannot compare yourself to others. Everyone’s different and you don’t know their whole story. You’re only seeing the parts of their lives that make you feel bad or anxious. You are putting pressure on yourself because maybe that’s the part of your life where you aren’t confident in.
For me, I had to self reflect and take a step back and recognize how far I’ve come, where I’m at and what I want. Remind yourself of the positives in your life and if you need to, recite it as obsessively as Aria with her kill list in Game of Thrones- two very different lists mind you. Today, I think back to my degree and the work I put in to get it. I think about the places I’ve travelled to, and different goals I’ve achieved when I thought that I never would! I also think about the failures, but not as negatively now. I realize that my failed relationships, didn’t work out for a reason and they helped to teach me what kind of a person I’m looking for. With each failure, I’ve grown and learned a valuable lesson that have impacted and shaped my opinions and views about my life! Today, I thought about my life and where I’m currently at. I may dislike my job and my current relationship situation- but I’m healthy, happy, and ready to set some future goals! At 25, I can say I know what I want and this is the year of me putting myself out there and taking action!
Everyone is different. Some people knew way before me what they wanted, and some are like me- just awakening. I should not feel bad for it, and I don’t now. I stayed single to figure out who I am and where I want to go without the influence of someone else. At least now I know if I meet a guy, I will have the same goals and won’t change myself to appease a guy (I find, I change myself for a guy to make it work). It was just something I needed to do. It’s why I also took a year off to work, so I could figure out my next path.
So, I could panic about my age and getting older, but instead I think it’s more important to celebrate my life right now, and I’m excited for my future! I’ve done so much and come so far, and at the end of the day, age doesn’t matter unless you’re 17 ( in Alberta), 18, or 21 and cannot wait to come of age to go to the bar